Feeling lost..

Why does it happen that suddenly out of no where.. for no perticular reason you feel lost. Perhaps its the struggles you go through and put brave face to it.. and it catches up to you ..suddenly.. out of no where...

How hard sometimes it becomes not to show pity to yourself..cry 'victim' ! foul.. come on.. its not fair.. how hard is it not to cry and put again brave front .. and to remind youself that you.. You are not victim.. you are where you are because of your choice and you can most certainly get yourself out of it... don't blame fate.. 

Its easy said to live in present and hard to get rid of past .... Temptation of comparing yourself to 'Abhimanu' in Chakra Vyuha..

Its one way.. you know how to get in.. and more you try to come out.. more you get in... trapped.. destined to die in the battle itself... never to come out of it.

I know.. I am not born to do what I am doing right now.. I know.. How I know ? I can't explain.. Does it sound like I think highly of myself.. but then why shouldn't I ? But then why is this feeling of lost ?

Come on cheer up.. its just one of those days.. cheer up.. don't try to do anything special to cheer youself... just don't let yourself let feel 'more' like victim...

Lost.. perhaps.. but who isn't ? At least you know you are lost... and you know its not real... Find something real then....